Before the year of 2013 ended, I made my New Year resolution for 2014. I remembered one of the things I wanted to see happen is to be transformed by God to become a woman whose confidence and security come from the Lord, and whose presence brings hope and life to the people around her. After that night where I wrote down my resolution, I carried on with life as usual.
Little did I realize, I was soon distracted from my goal. I was sucked into the world of dieting and trying to shed those extra pounds off me. I was obsessed with the “perfect” look, which I naively thought I could achieve by restricting calories and using more beauty and health products. I figured getting healthy for the New Year is no harm at all. And indeed, wanting to live a healthy life is a good and wise choice, but when my thoughts are fixed on it 24 hours a day, it becomes an obsession.
I realized I grew distant from God and struggled to come before Him—for all I had in mind was to exercise and eat according to my diet plan. I knew I needed to stop. And so, I disciplined myself to set aside time to pray. I made sure no matter how distracted I was, I would spend time to be still before the Lord—to pray or to sing worship songs.
I told God that the next time I start thinking about weight, I’d call on the name of Jesus. The amazing thing about God is that He will not spoon-feed us if He wants us to grow. He needs us to cooperate with Him; in other words, we are to practice active waiting. This means we have to do what we have to do—seeking Him, reading the Bible and Christian articles, etc. And so I read up about security and confidence in Christ. The first few days were hard. But as time went by, it became easier. I started feeling the stronghold of physical beauty slowly losing its grip on me.
The next time an overwhelming thought comes gushing into your mind and it seems as if you’re defeated by it, call out to God for His deliverance, and wait patiently while you take steps in improving the situation, because in Psalm 50:15 God says, “And call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me” (ESV).
The Lord hears our desperate cries. When He delivers us, we shall proclaim His faithfulness and power to the world.